bipolar.). k, I can't seem to stay happy, Sunday my husband and I took our 2 kids to t them park(dollywood) and i was in a ok mood i played with them and all that stuff, and that evening I just seemed to get in a horrible mood on the way home. I still am...I feel the world is aginst me and i can turn to no one for help, i have bills due that can't be paid(and i know thats adding to it, i have no idea what to do about it. I feel it would be best if i were dead(most of the time) that way i wouldn't pass my feeling on to my kids(who are 2 %264 yrs old) i hate who i am, i just want to sit in a corner and cry to myself for days, i feel everything that goes wrong is my fault, and i can do nothing to make it better, i feel inadequate because i can't provide what my kids need, and i feel like a bad mother for this reason. I don't know who to ask for help, and I'm afraid if i do my family(mostly my mom) will think of me as a peice of crap, I hate asking for anything from anyone. aaahhhhhhh!!
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First think of this...later in life your kids would have to say their mom was passed or killed herself. You need to A get on the right meds B talk to a counselor maybe a family one so they know why you act the way you do sometimes so the kids know it isnt there fault and C need to just pamper yourself and do things for you that make you happy. Bills should be your first priority so that will take away your stress..instead of the theme park pay some bills. Dont feel bad for asking for help if you dont ask and dont open up then it will just drive people away from you then you really wont have anyone to help you. Just pull yourself out of the slum for your family stop feeling so bad...if you truly are this sad get on meds talk to a counselor otherwise done mope if you dont want to ask for help because otherwise nothing will be solved. You have children and need to think of their happiness. You need to set a good example for them. I know what it is to be judged by everyone I know what it is to be left out of the family. I am Deaf in hearing family who wont adjust to my needs..I grew up in Deaf community while hearing community looks down on us thinking we are dumb or disabled. I know how bad depression can be...but you need to help yourself for your childrens sake...
you have depression and what you are feeling is perfectly normal for someone who is depressed. I have it too. Please go and see your doctor and tell them how you are feeling. If they don't help you then see another doctor until you feel comfortable talking to them. They will give you some antidepressants and help you to cope again. Once you feel a bit better you will be able to stand up for yourself and let your mother in law know who is these childrens mother. Maybe you might even be able to talk to her once you feel a bit better. Good luck
You taking the first step to recovery. admitting you have a problem.. I was in your shoes but denied it for 6 months.I have now recovered%26gt; raised a family now retired and a happy Grand pa %26gt; others have done it so can you..Pls try to read The power of positive Thinking%26gt; change your thinking change your life. It works you have an illness that can be treated,, The rewards are worth it..Dont worry about others If they love you they will be at your side. My name is Ed feel free to e mail me any timeIts 7 am pacific time ill be here off and on till noon
I was told many years ago that I was the loneliest man in the world. I was very disappointed and felt I deserved better. I soon began to see how this was all true when I thought I had friends. False friends were proven within the year and I began to start anew. I had to lose some bad expectations too but this kept me from the insult unto death and I survived . I know some who didn't
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